"The deepest spiritual lessons are not learned by His letting us have our way in the end, but by His making us wait, bearing with us in love and patience until we are able honestly to pray what He taught His disciples to pray:

'Thy Will Be Done'."

~Elisabeth Elliot

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

when the wait is over...

i could take a break from sucking in my stomach. i could use a break from that.
i could start liking my outfits instead of thinking..."this outfit would be so cute...IF my stomach was a baby and not bloated fattiness".
i could feel guilt-free about not exercising...afterall, i'll have to take it easy.
i could justify eating ice cream everyday as my dairy.
i could get away with having chipped toe nail polish...i wouldn't be able to reach my feet anyways.
i could get away with not shaving my legs???....um, probably couldn't get away with that one for long.
most of all...
i could see the flicker of life on an ultrasound screen before the heartbeat is even audible.
i could hear the swirly sound of my baby's heart pumping life into his little body.
i could feel kicks and squirms.....i so long to feel kicks and squirms again.
i could decorate his nursery...marking a physical home for him.
i could have a baby shower...anticipating his arrival!
i could hold my baby!!!
i CAN'T WAIT for the wait to be over!

4 comments:

Keri said...

I pray - a LOT - that your wait will be OVER soon! :D

Jaclyn said...

thanks, Keri! that means more than you know! :)

Nichole said...

I feel like you read my thoughts ... praying for you every day and hoping that the wait is over for both of us VERY soon! Love ya!

Keri said...

I pray for you too, Nichole! I've prayed for you both since before I got pregnant. When I did get pregnant, I had a lot of "Why me and why not other people?" thoughts. I was extremely grateful to be pregnant, but felt undeserving. I started praying a lot for people who I knew wanted to be pregnant as well. So, you have been prayed for very frequently. I can't wait for God to send those BFPs!!!!!!!! :D :D