fears and faith

i have a long list of fears...here's a few for your reading pleasure:

people coughing/sneezing directly on me or into their hand and then shaking mine

vomit...terrified of this one

doctors...which is weird because i have one for every part of my body pretty much

cancer...because you might not know it's there until it's too late

rejection...because everyone loves to be accepted

failure...because i want to be really good at something

drowning...because...this is self-explanatory....

heights...because i don't want to fall

closed in spaces...because i love an easily accessible escape route

loneliness...because i love Nate so much...i never want to be without him

i have fears...a lot of them...more than what i listed here...

i have fears about my future...fears that i'll never have another child...fears that i've put other dreams on hold for so long and that one day, it will be too late....fears that i'll focus on one dream over another and i'll have regrets...

i've realized that the only reason these are fears is because there's some dark shadowing hovering over them...every one of these things invokes a feeling of uncertainty...

but...

here's my faith...and it's a short list:

"Thy word is a lamp unto my feet

and a light unto my path".

God's word tell us that He'll supply light for each step...and i don't need to know what happens around the bend where the shadow is...yep, the road can be uncertain at times...and that's ok...because He'll supply the light i need to make sure my foot is in the right place.